The Before and After
Entheogens are consciousness expanding medicines that often elicit a supernatural or divine experience. They assist us in connecting with our divinity... our inner guru, inner shaman, and inner healer. It is well known in the medicine community that ceremony begins as soon as one decides to work with an entheogen and continues long afterwards. Since 2012, My journey has taken me to many vortexes in the world where I learned with shamans and curanderos, participating and holding space in countless journeys with entheogens as well as the master medicine kambo. After assisting hundreds of participants, I am well aware that an optimal experience in ceremony is heavily dependent on the pre-integration work, and post-integration is a delicate and sensitive process that can take place over months or even years.
Many people feel great after ceremony, but weeks or months later can feel worse than they did before ceremony. This is because they did not allow for an optimal post-integration experience or were not properly prepared to begin. Having your heart blown wide open and experiencing the realms of the infinite is what we came here to do, and entheogens are here to help us with that... but what do you do with that cracked-open heart and that mind-blowing realization of the Everything and the Nothing when you return back to your normal life? How do you protect your energy body as it rewires and reconnects? How do you navigate the fields of your subconscious mind as you become more aware of this vast space? How do you begin to make sense of the quantum field you have experienced? How do you allow your physical body time and space to complete the healing transformation? How do you allow time and space to continue the conversation... to do the work? How do you continue to raise your vibration and operate in a higher frequency while being fully in your body?
Often, suppressed traumas and shadows will rise to the surface, even before we begin our work with entheogens. Unresolved issues from other timelines, such as past lives or soul contracts that do not serve us in this timeline may become apparent, often through physical sensations, emotional feelings, thoughts and behaviors, and sometimes through memories or dreams. It is important to understand that entheogens will not cure you of your traumas, but they will show you where traumas are embedded in your body and can open the door to help you feel and process them. They often will point to the root causes of your dis-ease and can help you understand the nature of your dis-ease. Entheogens will not cure you of addiction, but they can assist you in uncovering the masks and reasons for your addiction or unhealthy coping mechanisms. You still have to do the work. I can help you access your inner healer, navigate other realms of consciousness, nullify soul contracts, release trauma and suppressed emotions, confront your shadows, and recall fragments of your soul, enabling you to heal other timelines so you can return to wholeness.
Wholeness is multi-faceted. Intertwined with everything else in our lives is our sexuality and sensuality, and entheogens can open us up and help us correct imbalances and disconnection in our sacral center. I have found that many women experience womb-related trauma during medicine work. They may have disturbing and often painful memories or physical sensations in the womb. Both men and women may begin to experience sensual and sexual expansion after medicine work, which is great, yet there may be much confusion on how to express this in a healthy way. I have extensive training in womb healing as well as tantric and Taoist methods for integrating and reclaiming your sensuality and sexuality. This is also essential in our quest to return to wholeness. You can read more about that here.
As a trauma, emergency medicine, and critical care registered nurse for over twenty years, I have a deep understanding of the human body, dis-ease, and the physical ailments you may be coming to heal through entheogen work. I have also assisted innumerable people in the death experience as well as through unspeakable traumas. Fear and anger are often at the root of so many of our issues, and while entheogens do not cure us of these heavy dense emotions, they open the door to help us feel and process them. My training in critical care as well as in the shamanic, tantric, and yogic traditions enables me to have a wide scope of practice, and there is not much I haven't witnessed after so many years doing this work... so bring it all! Let's find the tools that work for you so you can continue to work with these emotions as they arise.
An optimal experience with entheogens requires a great amount of trust and surrender. It is quite normal to feel anxiety before any experience that is going to open us up to other realms of consciousness. In the work we do together, I will help you prepare physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, so you can remove many of the obstacles that may prevent you from being able to trust and surrender into the experience. Often, we are not prepared for the dissolution of the ego that work with entheogens may bring. This can often be terrifying, and having a guide through this experience is essential. The quantum space that is created through medicine work can help us expand and embody the cosmic codes of divinity that we have come here to remember, however, if we do not know how to fill that space, or we are not aware of what is occurring, we can often regress and reinforce harmful patterns. Again, this is why it is essential that even the most experienced of practitioners have a pre- and post-integration plan in place.
In the work that we do together, I will help you begin and continue the conversation with the medicine before and after ceremony. I will help you prepare you physically and energetically so you can more fully trust and surrender. I will help you understand what you saw, felt, or heard, and help you process that in a way that will be optimally beneficial. I can also offer you guidance with safe plant allies that will assist you in your integration and can also help you access your power animals, elemental guides, and ancestor guides. I will serve as a guide to help you enter into a safe space and create a safe container for you to continue your process. You can learn more about some of the modalities I use here.
Entheogens are master teachers and help us heal in many ways, but when we have limited experience with these medicines, or with consciousness expansion, trauma release, or shadow work, it is always best to have a guide. Even when we have a lot of experience, it is still optimal to have someone to help us integrate. I am fully aware of the many missteps and pitfalls when it comes to working with the entheogens, and I want you to have the best possible journey. Like any journey, what we pack and how we prepare is vital to our experience. I will help prepare for your journey and will ease you into the post-integration process so you can further awaken and ascend. I am happy to serve you and to ensure safe passage. Sessions are available by distance or in person.
I have been working with consciousness expanding medicines for almost 30 years. I am an initiated shamanic priestess and have taken multiple courses in shamanism and plant consciousness with world renowned shamanic practitioners. My priestess lineage is connected to the Egyptian and Hindu pantheon as well as the Magdalene Order. My entheogen experience comes mainly through the Shipibo and European/Indigenous lineages of Peru, although I also have a connection to the Huni Kuin, Yawanawa, and Santo Daime of Brazil, and I have also received shamanic training in the Q'ero tradition of the Andes. I have worked on a deep and personal level with many master teachers such as ayahuasca, huachuma, medicinal mushrooms, bufo alvarius, changa, rapé, mapacho, cannabis, and cacao. Other close personal allies include coca leaf, sananga, palo santo, tulsi, rose, rosemary, lavender, pine, frankincense, white sage, clary sage, patchouli, lemongrass, and ylang-ylang.You can read more about my personal experience here.
Connecting into the deep wisdom the entheogens bring is a privilege and is not to be taken lightly. To honor and protect these great teachers and the medicine keepers is a necessity if we are to receive the benefits. May these medicines continue to thrive on our sacred planet and bring deep healing and enlightenment to all.
Haux, Amen, and Aho!